But in a way -
I'm kinda pregnant.
After growing seven babies in my belly, you'd think I'd be plenty weary of pregnancy. I'm no spring chicken either; at 43-ish my body is past the birthing years & cresting the mid-life-crisis hump. And yet, over the past year or so, I keep thinking, and wishing for, and dreaming I'm pregnant.
To help God grow a new life...is just, well, beyond words.
But of course, since this is a blog & all, I'll try to think of a few:
Ummm, how 'bout - empowering, challenging, thrilling, exhausting, energizing, nauseating, aSTOUNDing and pretty much all around terrifying. (I mean, sheesh, who wouldn't want 3 months of morning sickness followed by 3 months of heartburn and then 3 months of waddling with a watermelon under your skin???)
Okay, but obviously there's more to it than that. And I think maybe my recurrent dream about being pregnant is true.
I think God has new life growing in me.
No, not a baby in my belly - but new life, all the same.
It's not much more than a flutter so far; a dream of something incredible and beautiful, eternal even. A mission, a calling, a passion - finally conceived, and swelling within me. I'm not even sure yet about it's name...but I can sense the heart of this baby, and its so much about healing, rescue, empowerment.
So this new life has been implanted in me, right? And I'm all thrilled & scared & expectant. But if I leave it at that, the life won't grow or thrive. Now I've gotta join God in this miraculous process - take my prenatal vitamins, eat well, exercise, rest...
You see what I'm getting at?
Just because God is makin' it happen doesn't mean I'm supposed to sit back & do nothing.
Being a mommy is all about joining God in the miraculous.
Doing my part to nurture & grow the gift of life He has given me.
So this past week I met with an admissions adviser to pursue my master's degree in psychology. Reserved Mt. Princeton Hot Springs Resort for the inaugural Mommy Sabbatical retreat in May 2014. Dug into the 'Calling Class' with Free Agent Academy. Scheduled a weekend with a business planner & author James Woosley. Created my Collaborative Crew' support team. And tomorrow I head into Donald Miller's Storyline conference in Nashville, TN.
It seems pretty daunting - joining God in this venture, stepping out in faith.
I'm feeling kinda pregnant with it all.
Grow, baby, grow!
Feeling pregnant with anything lately???