Wisdom is definitely not book knowledge.
I've read all kinds of books about how to be a more godly woman, a great wife, a good mommy. Reading about it didn't make it so. I've even memorized the scriptures about being 'above rubies'...about the Proverbs 31 woman. Memorizing scripture didn't make it so.
Wisdom doesn't come from listening to self-help podcasts. I can't seem to get Wisdom from music, or movies, or Christian magazines, or worship services, or sermons.
I don't even get Wisdom from being around other wise women.
I've been praying for Wisdom.
Begging for Wisdom.
For my ever-wavering faith, marriage, mothering.
Instead of becoming wiser...I'm getting stupider.
Seems like every day my eyes are opened to the ridiculousness of my own ignorance & stupidity & immaturity.
"Committing a great truth to memory is admirable; committing it to life is wisdom." --William A. Ward
Maybe Wisdom can't be read or taught or gleaned.
Maybe Wisdom can only be experienced, the hard way.
But Lord, I want to be 'jacked in' like on The Matrix, so Wisdom can just be downloaded into my brain, my spirit. When I pray for Wisdom...Lord, why can't You just download it into me?
Maybe Wisdom isn't something I learn, or strive for, or do.
"And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free." --John 8:32
Maybe Wisdom is something I be.
Maybe
Wisdom is
being who God designed me to be
making those tiny, minute-by-minute, common-sense, of-course-I-know-better choices
being with my husband
being with my children
being with God.
I wonder, when it's all said & done, if God will smile & say, "thanks for doing your Bible study, Teri, and for making that dinner, and for teaching 5th grade long division..."
No, I think when it's all said & done, God will smile & say,
"Thanks for being."